Desire for control = you gave control away ( re centre and responsibility )

When you want control so badly and you feel nothing you have done many works to opt the last option available you remove your choice to want to live, things go downhill quickly because this manifests into your physical actions of this. as it breaks down your very will and desire to live to create your own imput into creating life now to focusing on removing its every molecule.

Yes life is a responsibility yes you choose it yes it’s a power. I want to show you how to actually build systems that remove you from the place of choosing to manifest at the continual rock bottom bare minimum because you don’t know how to deal with the mental stuff the emotions the pressures.

it’s such a difficult life mindset to hold yourself at nothing espically when you make 7&8 figures a year for Somone else ( mom , family, your spouse) when you live for them but become only a worker. you created your life for them but you would perfer to not even live if you had to just have you alone on this planet. Just be honest with yourself it’s why you say you will just do it for “love” or “loyality” or you “owe them your life” these are all

Ways you have belived to code your brain and life to serve others to hopefully get enough inspiration to keep living.

But it gets so difficult the higher you are more money more status more attention, you just start thinking -they will have enough money to live I’ll just cast out it’s to much to bear ( yes others dreams are too much to bear let them go live for you invest in what you like ) … it’s because you built it for them not for you ..

your power self or spirit doesn’t create systems to uphold things that are not in alignment your deeper systems of power are being told your own life isn’t worth expressing it’s not worth standing up for so you disable your power and become a puppet.

This is why you can’t live for love you can’t actually live well in a relationship that doenst agree with you everything within you runs on the other direction. But it’s happening because you first ran from yourself so you choose relationships you will end up running from.

You will always end up at a place you have to face who you are until you start building yourself up to a point that you learned to live for others again as soon as your strong enough., it’s a program cycle you start invoke relationships that put you right back into giving to them living for them .

This is why this situation needs both transformation of fate and transformation of relations you have to change how you relate and value your own self opinion your own self power ( it’s never anything outside of you the religions that taught you it’s outside , it is why you gave it away)

Your all the characters inside all the mentalities on how life is and exists , you do everything great and terrible to yourself! By choice .. and change by choice!

To hold structure to maintain your life has to be to uplift your own power source your own deepest desires aligned with what is wealthy healthy because your soul actually needs lessons on how to maintain a healthy balanced humsn! I know mine did and I’m beyond ancient!

( the old way where you pawn your weight off on woman / man is finished) all must balance themself create for themself alone.

This is

ENYELAH

BROWNIN TAYLOR